Thursday, May 17, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007 ●

hey txks cindy fer helping me to post haha!!! n todae i m back to bring my blog alive!!! anw, got back my EL n HCL results ytd. well, all along, i din expect much fer my language. just a pass n i will be contented... but wad ms. azlin sae juz makes me to huv thoughts abt myself... ... she sae dun just get too happy over a c6. n dere's once she said b4 tt if a pass is wad u expect, den u r recommemded to change to another school. well, my chi r deproving ever since i enter sec sch... at first i was quite shocked wen my chi was under my expectation. coz i thought language is juz the same thing. well, n after a while... i sorta got adapted to the standard n i M satisfied wif my marks. fer sec 3 hcl, i think the reason i dun score well is partly coz i m not realli interested in it... but peeps, it's all abt mood fer me kkays. wen the mood cum, yupp i will huv the motivation to do everything. as fer english... well since pri sch until now, i hardly score an A fer my english... well it juz suxs...tt's all i can sae... so ytd was not a demoralising dae fer me. i expected tt kinda mark. got back the rest of the sub todae. wif juz a last minute studying... onli starting to study juz one dae b4 the exam... i realli m contented wif the results tt i get. failed 2 subs. but nvm... chem paper... it was damn saddening... although i expected a 30 plus... n i score more than the expected mark, i... ... txks ms azilah fer the encouragement. but realli realli sry to disappoint u! i noe u r a veri gd teacher. Those rushing lessons, i noe it's coz u r rushing the syllabus. wen i received all my chem papers, it was realli a mesh... everything was on the floor n i wanted to double check the marks. miss azilah was lyk walking towards me... n i realised she was standing next to me... well, after tt, she squat down n sae smth to me... txks miss azilah fer ur concern n encouragement!!! n i realli feel lyk crying after this ok! i realli cannot stand it anymore... it's realli veri saddening... saddening not the result. u noe wad? wen u score badly, n all the ppl arnd u was lyk "yes! i got 83" or smth lyk tt, it makes u feel so invisible n useless! mind U lar!!!! i noe this sounds a little offending...but try to stand under my circumstances n u will noe how sulky it feels! n after all these... i realli cannot make it anymore... ... txks mal. fer acc me to go toliet! yupp. n i realli understand how u feels fer u-noe-wad! lyk, although i nv experience this b4, but wen i put myself in ur own shoes, i realli noe how u feels. but no matter wad mal. u still got us rite!!!! g3 will alwaes rock on rite!!! well fer physics, hmm i realli realli worked veri hard during the exam itself... i think i made a slight improvement... so even i fail... i m not sad after it... partly coz my wire goes zigzag le n coz i m numbed... but anw, txks cindy fer acc me to go ask fer mark (: n txks mr tan fer the words of encouragement too! n ppl, wen u score more than 60, juz lyk dun sae anything le... be content pls!!! dun be the one crying!!!! if u all cry, den sum of us will even huv the privilege to cry! mind u lar! i noe i m rude... but is lyk... ppl do u realli noes how it feels to such circumstances! i believe sum of u out dere will realli understand how it feels rite. i feel soo shitified... not coz of my results... but coz of the circumstances tt i m in! i M not jealous of the high marks, n i noe tt all u ppl r rewarded the high marks coz u work hard. but yupp i noe a lot of ppl hu realli put in lotta effort but they din score well. it juz suxs to se everything, ur everything effort and hard work to go down the drain. tt's wad happen to me after ct...maybe tt's the reason y i dared not work hard anymore... i realli do not huv to courage anymore... well, u can sae i m a person hu cannot face any toughness in my life... but i m juz too tired... esp the things tt happen after ct... i juz can't gif myself anymore chances... ... i realli wanna rest well now... but dere is realli no time fer me to rest... well, i guess tt's the interesting part bah! i noe dere r ppl out dere feeling more low than me... choir was quite ok todae... we r learning new song, sakura, sakura! yupp! hmm n wenjie get well soon! txks fer the encouragement tt u huv given me yupp (: u r realli a nice friend. a friend tt can make my life full of hope! n choir is huving a new shirt le!
well, i juz feel tt my class r too competitive... dere's sum hu sae tt they haven even started studying one dae b4 the exam... but ended up their results r much better than mine... well, i got nth to sae lar.... but smth i do wonder... r u all saeing the truth...
dere r a lotta friends arnd u, sum can be trusted! n u will noe deep down in ur heart hu is truthful to u (:
well, ppl i noe i m mean n rude in this blog... juz dun care abt me... i m juz venting everything into my blog... can't possibly vent it out on my family rite.

xxxxxx

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