Thursday, October 26, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006 ●

I've found the reason for me......
A reason to start over new......

listening to this songs, millions of thoughts juz flashed throught my mind.
i can't resist.
all those complicated stuff, tiring memories... ...
dull sky
everything is gray
seems to me tt everything is hopeless.
all those apologies, starting anew, seems so distant.
fine, shall not be so depressed.
shall not be so pessimistic.
shall try to look on the bright side of life.

everydae, i dun feel lyk gng home.
i m so slack n i can feel tt i m slacking.
it's after exams.
yet dere r still a bottle full of worries hidden in my heart.
i m still thinking of a way to release them.
all of them. every tiny bit of them.
all those worries, shoo away manz.

gng wild wild wet tml. hmm haha shall enjoy myself tml.
hazel huv a smooth trip ok?


gonna miss g3.
i think i m gonna cry tonight.
till now, i still can't make myself to believe tt sec 2 life is over.
lower sec life is over.
i juz can't.

to me, sec 1 life as if happened one month ago.
registration dae, i hate crescent.
i huv no idea y i hate crescent.
but gradually, dunno since wen, i began to luv crescent
i m proud to be a crescentian.
i miss sec 1 life.
g3.
a class of cheers n laughters.
from strangers to friends
from friends to classmates
from classmates to bonded class.
i miss sec 1 life.
i miss g3.
i can't bear to part.
it seems lyk complete miracle.
from complete strangers
n now we become bonded with each other
i feel comfortable wen i hang out wif my classmates.
time flies manz.
a few months seem to vanish in a few seconds.
the time goes ticking away
i regret fer not cherishing the time tt we had together.
sec 2 life dere is laughter n cries.
of cuz high tide n low tide.
still rmb during national dae celebration, i realli can feel the bond within us!
although i can onli feel it during this yr, but i M reali contented tt g3 can bond together as a class, as a whole.
without anyone, we will not be complete. but although some ppl are not wif us, they leave behind their traces of footprints fer us.
all those bad times n gd times, i realli miss them a lot.
i realli wish tt time will stop now.
or even better, i can travel back to the time wen we r bonded as a whole class.
i realli regret fer treating tt someone so cruelly n coldly.
had i noe the truth from the beginning, i realli promise
realli promise tt i will treat tt person better realli.
i realli feel so sry lar

A very sincere apology to tt someone. I realli appreciate ur presence.
ur presence make me realise my faults, my mistakes, my wrong doings. Now, i feel so fortunate to huv a friend lyk u. at least i still manage to huv some LITTLE time to cherish u. to treat u better than in the past. but thinking of my attitude towards u inthe past, makes me think tt i m realli veri sulky. I suxs manz.

i miss out the fun todae. so sorry. i dun mean it. if i huv known it, i wld huv join in the fun too.

todae, in the arts conservatory, looking at some of my classmates in the room, my eyes flashing through every single one of them, tears welled up in my eyes. but at least, it did not blurred my vision. i decide not to dampen everybody's mood. i wanted to huv a nice memories of the last dae of sch. i regret for forgetting to bring my digi cam. photos not taken. lesser memories fer me. but at least dere r the past memories.

hey g3, i will miss every single one of u. never in my life had i been so sad to part wif any of my pri. sch classes. no offend. but sec sch realli leave a veri deep chapter fer me. sec 1 sec 2 lifes passed in a twinkling of an eye.

I promise from now onwards, i m gng to cherish everyone, everything. not to take them fer granted. not to take TIME fer granted. my locker is lyk home to me. although dere is books n some PICS in it, but realli, i feel so safe juz by looking at my locker, even at my classroom. txks hazel fer u noe wad. haha.

crying will not solve anything.

crying will not turn things to be better.

no use crying over spilled milk.

but crying will make me feel better.

as if the tears will evaporate all my worries

but one dae those worries will condense into my tears again.

hmm shall look on the BRIGHT side of life.

PPLS, realli cherish everybody, love ur enemies, love those tt u dun lyk.

if not in the end, u will hate urself fer not treating them well

I HATE myself. fer not treating tt person well.

I hate it. i will try to make up all those things.




xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )