Saturday, August 05, 2006
Saturday, August 05, 2006 ●

*___in the midst of tears, hoping tt someone could rescue me
PBL SUXXXXSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE PBL!!!!!!!!!!!! i huv been working on the webiste fer several hrs and all i get is nothing. I am sooo sooo sooo stressed by this stupid pbl project lar. Frankly, it is affecting my health and my studies. I can't stand it anymore!!! I wanted to gif up on doing the webpage. But can i? Dere's no one in my grp hu noes how to do...including me!!! After thinking fer a min, i decided tt my grp either get a zero fer pbl n score badly fer our streaming or realli work hard fer it. But time is realli packed. It is lyk 1 plus n i m still stuck!!! I HATE PBL!!! so lucky tt we dun huv to do this project next yr. If not i will sure suffocate to death. I m serious. I m realli tired. Can i go to slp? No, i can't. The webpage is due on mon. n i m huving sci commontest on mon. too! oh man, how i going to find time to do this stupid webpage and at the same time revise fer sci. i m sooo weak in physics lar. i can't cope wif it. I m realli sick of pbl. I noe it will end on mon. but i m struggling to do the webpage. I realli owe malvika one. She realli help me a lot todae. After sch, went to eat lunch, after tt went monet lab to do pbl. I m huving difficulty wif the flash n ms jean is not in the com lab so i went to find malvika fer help. n she did not rejected helping me out. She has got so much patience to hel me n teach me! Txks malvika!!! U r realli my great friend and even best friend!!! you r indeed my true friend. u help me up todae. if not, i will broke out in tears todae in the com lab. txks malvika. i realli need ur help now. but i wonder y am i soo not independent. I juz realise tt i can't confide in anyone else. So here i m, bloggging to went out all my frustration. i m soo miserable. i m soo helpless, despair. intended to do pbl fer the whole night without sleeping. cindy sae i will sure fall sick wan lar. Txks cindy, fer ur concern. hmm but i can't get to sleep well. I will ponder over PBL. i m stuck on the webpage. i huv tried my veri best to do till i huv no energy left. i realli need to calm down. Nobody can save me. Except God. I will pray fer patience n confidence. pray fer wisdom pray fer courage. Malvika, i will repay u one dae. I realli dun wan to fail my pbl. It will affect my streaming. I HATE PBL!!!! ok i admitit did help us in gaining knowledge on certain things, but it adds on a lot of burden fer us. It realli make me soo tired. I feel lyk resting. Taking a big rest. Can I? Do i huv the time to? My hse is so quiet now. onli i m not asleep. i wanna confide in my family, but i huv no one beside me now. maybe, i shld learn to be independent. but somehow isense tt this is not the time to. i needa care bout PBL. I really cannot carry on this long n tiring journey. i reallli need to rest. I feel tt i m panting lyk hell. Thirsty. Dehydrating. Dying. I feel soo terrible. It is lyk the darkest moment of my life. I realli hope to escape from this cruel reality. I hope tt once i go to sleep, i will not wake up. but be engrossed in m sweet dreams. NEVER ENDING sweet dreams. I do not wanna wake up n face this harsh reality. oh man, i reali huv the feeling tt i will not huv time to complete my pbl webpage. how??? this project realli stress me lyk hell. actually it was meant to be a veri simple project. but due to the time frame n our test n exam, do we huv enough time to manage? I doubt so. Dere's so mani class test andcommon test, exam so on . N PBL realli add on to my burden. Everytime wen i m trying to get rid of this burden, i m thinking den hu will care bout pbl. I m not saeing tt my grp members dun care bout the project. But i m trying to sae tt at the rate we are working, it is realli impossible to complete it on time. I m not saeing my grp members r working slowly. But is ME. I AM THE ONE. I dun wan to be the one hu is working slow. But dere is realli no one to help me. I reaalli need a computer prodigy to help me do my wedpage.
Drifting off from the cruel reality, dozing off into the world of happiness n hope.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )