Monday, August 07, 2006
Monday, August 07, 2006 ●

*_______having nightmares during coma
sun.
recently life simply suxs. but i did manage to enjoy some daes lyk sundaes. as usual, went to church ytd. n we went out to spread gospel, by using the onc-verse evangelism. Went out wif my sundae sch grp. we were walking round n round the blks flat. n wen they wanna share the gospel wif other ppl, they refused. Many sae they were not free or rushing fer time. But it was not true!!! They juz sae tt they were not free den they juz walk away n i rmb one adult juz walk away n play swing wif her son. Frankly speaking, i realli feel veri guilty. Coz i neva practised the one-verse evangelism well. Wen i rehearsed it wif my bro at home, i was stuck at most of the point n i need my bro's help to continue. we took turns to rehearse with each other you see. n wen it was his turn to speak to me, he did it so fluentl n smoothly. Of cuz dere were some very small tiny micro errors, but he did it soo well!!! I realli envy my bro lor. not jealous of him. coz i think he realli put in a lot of hard work yrs back. but somehow, i juz feel soo ashame, so guilty. I never preach to my pri sch frenz. fine. i once asked my pri chi teacher to come to my church. hmm but she did not. Maybe it's coz some reasons tt she doesn't wanna come. anw, i shall pray tt i work hard on practising the evangelism n start to preach to my friends, start to share this piece of gd news to them.
mon. (todae)
i had weird dreams again. i feel so terrible. i had dreams almost every night. sometimes i had sweet dreams while sometimes i had bad dreams. lyk todae, ican't realli rmb the dream tt i dreamt, but it was realli those type of veri super duper weird dreams lar.anw, the journey to sch todae juz simply sux. i had to carry a very heavy bag n had to take heavy bags loaded wif bks. arrgh... sometimes i realli envy those whose parents fetch them to sch everydae. unike me, huv to wake up super early in the morning n take mrt to sch. hmm, but it is not a bad thing after all. i can treat it as a kinda exercise. hmm walking is healthy haha. but sometimes i m juz too tried n lazy to walk. but no choice. sometimes wen i was walking to sch, i will look at the dark sky n imagine how life is like at there, how r all the ppl doing dere? whenever i cross the overhead bridge, i feel lyk staying dere forever, watching the scenery, watching each vehicle passing by. tt' the kinda peaceful like tt i wan to lead, which is impossible, totally impossible. reach sch n cindy n hazel were doing pbl in class. coz todae is the deadline. i was coughing n coughing n coughing. n todae morning hazel was soo sick. coz she rushed all da way to sch, skipping her breakfast. anw, she skips her breakfast everydae. hazel , hope u read this kkays. i juz wanna tell u tt u muz eat breakfast. if not ur body won't be able to take it. u need the energy to work. coz this morning i realli feel sad wen i see u got gastric. ur face was lyk so terrible. soo muz rmb to eat breakfast every morning kkays. even if u dun huv time u can oso bring to sch to eat, lyk the rest. todae, got back my history test. wen i see the marks, at least i mange to pass!!! I shld be feeling happy tt i pass my history, which is realli a miracle. maybe i m too greedy. maybe a pass is really ok fer my history. maybe this is even the highest mark tt i can score this yr.wen i sae my result, i decided to gif up on my his. i feel so sick of it. Seriously, i like history, i enjoy history. but i juz dun understand y i did so badly fer my souce-based question. i realli wanna gif up!!! i cannot stand it anymore. maybe i shld look on the bright side of life. went fer recess todae. n i sae HER huving P.E. haha. den hazel was lyk toking to me bout this morning stuff but i feek interrupting her haha. den she was lyk sort of pissed off coz wenever she wanna sae smth, i will cut her off wan haha. soo funny lar. hmm went fer choir todae. n dere were veri few ppl. left half way wen nadiah went to call me. i was lyk arrgh bet it was smth bad. realli. the buttons fer the webpage were still not working. anw went to monet lab to find miss jean. but she was trying hard to find out wad was the prob. tt leads to the button not working. hmm so i went back to choir. fine i was looking soo stressed up i think. mr tay asked if i m ok. of cuz i sae i m ok rite. can i sae no? obviously not right. hmm so i juz sae i m fine n gif him a fake smile. but i realli m veri worried n stressed up by the pbl. after choir went back to monet lab to do pbl. Malvika, once again u saved me. txks a lot. i realli thank you fer all the great things tt u huv done to me. reaali. thanks you malvika!!! anw, me cindy xiner kalyn suan malvika tania n durrga went hazel hse to do. den we ordered pizze den they were lyk soo funny wen toking on the fone. den later this guy called paul called tania, or tania called him, den they were lyk keep on asking hm bout xiner n lesdon haha. n i actually scolded kena sai to him. ok i m bad.. i admit haha.hmm den after tt me n kalyn were lyk playing card games wif kean n hazel's mum haha. so funny lar. playing card games wif them is realli veri fun. i dun find it boring at all lor. weird rite? coz everytime wen i play wif my small cousin, is lyk super boring wan haha. kkays den later me kalyn n cindy went home at 10 or 11 plus. yar den wen me n cindy were walking to the mrt station, she was lyk asking mrt operate until wad time ar, den we faster chong lar. 1 MINUTE n so we faster chong up to the platform n we manage to catch the train haha. hmm my mum was lyk super angry wif me. n so wen i walked homewif her i juz tok a few sentences wif her n i knew she was angry. from her tone n the manner tt she speaks. so i juz dun tok to avoid dispute lar. hmm pbl ends todae. but miss jean gif us an extension till tml 10 soo nice. txks miss jean! hmm shall wait fer suan to do finish the buttons b4 i continue on some things. den i can go to slp .hmm national dae celebration tml. gonna wear red hmm...i wnna wear white lar haiz.... . shld i go out to buy prezzie wif azrinar or go out wif yingtong n linying? i dunno how to express this to them lar.

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