Thursday, May 11, 2006
Thursday, May 11, 2006 ●

_________________*waking up and realise the feeling of guilt has overwhelmed me


maybe i shld seriously change my attitude.
i huv been thinking abt my attitude, how i treat my frenz, n i even put myself in their shoes since i was in pri. sch.
i can understand their feeling
i m trying reali hard to change my attitude.
can i treat my frenz more nicer?
y do i keep breaking my promise.
i realli feel veri guilty to my best frenz.


[wed]
i was informed tt dere is choir on thurs, which is the next dae,
i sms my friend, telling her tt i cannot make it tml coz actually we r going out on thurs
n i promised to tell her in advance whether if i can go out wif her on thur.
but i failed. i din tell her in advance.
i always do things in last min.
i realli learnt my lesson
n todae i juz found out tt i dun huv choir
so i m free...
thinking tt ,maybe my friend may not make it since i oredi told her tt i got cca on tt dae, i din ask whether she is free or not.
since we left sec. i can feel tt she is the one hu is trying to keep in touch
but wad abt me??!!
i did nth!!!
realli, i huv been reflecting abt my attitude.
i noe i m irresponsible n tt i cannot keep my promise
i promise to pray hard n try hard to change my attitude
sorry *** ** :(
i dare not tell her tt i do not huv choir todae
coz i noe tt if i tell her, i wil be the irresponsible one again
i m the one hu keeps breaking the promise
i m the one hu keeps regretting after i had done certain things
i m realli sry *** **...
n is this sudden guilt in me tt i tell myself i muz apologise n change to be better
i wonder if my frenz think i m reliable, responsible???
i realli realli promise to change my attitude
i dun wan to be regretful over my action on certain things
maybe i m not a gd person at all, i m very temperamental
i feel lyk sometimes i treat my classmates n friends veri hostile
i m realli sry...
i will try hard to control my temper
i wonder if i got attitude prob.
i m realli guilty, coz sometimes i treat my friends veri hostile
juz coz i m not in a gd mood, n i vent my anger on them
i noe it is wrong, but i can't control myself
perhaps this maybe some lame excuse :(
sometimes i suspect tt i dunno wad is the real n true meaning of friendship
coz i dun treat my friends nice at all.
a sincere apology to all my friends out dere, in fact everyone out dere
realli, sry...


ending my dae wif prayer.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )