Saturday, August 06, 2005
Saturday, August 06, 2005 ●

i feel so damn shitty uncomfortable!!! even me myself dunno y i huv tis feeling... dunno y..juz feel tt my family dun care bout me... i hate my life... next week common test...i can die in front of all of ur lor... i dun tink i can live thhru tis common test... i hate common test!!! it suxs... todae morning... i cried...feel soo tired...dunno y ... i can't elp crying... cry fer long hrs.. my eyes were sooo red lor n soo swollen... i dun lyk tis family...frankly saying...i prefer stay alone than hangout wif my family... i hate it... i hate this feeling... i m soo cinfused now... i realli feel lyk going to another world...this imaginery world... where i can stay dere 4eva... me a lone go to tis world... the place where i can find peacefulness, happiness, where it is comfortable, where i can huv lots of freedom... wif no worries, stressed...mayb my expectation quite high...but i realli cannot tolerate my life...it suxs...IT SUXS!!! my head is sooo sooo soo heavy... super heavy...how i wish tt my head is lyk computer... i can delete everything in my head..line wif no worries n troubles!!!
sat. soo xianz... todae no ndp rehearsal ... i prefer to go to ndp lor... without my family...tt's a realli good feeling... but frm tis sat onwards...i huv to stay at home.. no ndp... no wadeva...i dun wan to study!!!! i hate study!!! i hate eng i hate math i hate chi i hate sci. i hate geog. i hate art i hate p.e. i hate everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sumbodi pls. help me... i dunno wad to do now... help me get out of tis comlicated place... i realli wanna go to tis imaginery place....

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )